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Gary Couzens is a British writer whose work has been published in The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction, Interzone, The Third Alternative, Peeping Tom, Psychotrope and Urges, and in the anthology Bizarre Sex and Other Crimes of Passion (Richard Kasak Books). This story previously appeared in Substance #4.

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by Gary Couzens

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Part Two

     In the morning Penny comes down to breakfast swathed in a nightdress and dressing-gown. Lorna, the only other woman living under this roof, is sitting at table in her pinstriped suit, applying lipstick: a secretary. Soon she and her boyfriend will be buying a flat of their own. A good time to do it, with prices depressed.
     Lorna glances up. "Hi, Penny." Then she looks up again, for longer this time. "God, you look awful.."
     "I feel awful."
     "Then why'd you get up out of bed, you silly cow?"
     "I had to eat something."
     "You really ought to see a doctor. You keep getting these migraines. It could be something you're eating. You may have to change your diet. I know about these things."
     "I know. I've seen a doctor. It's like my head's fucking splitting open."
     "By the way, your brother rang up last night. I said you weren't well."
     "I'll ring him back. It's probably Mum again."
     "Remember to log the phone call, won't you?"
     Shortly after one o'clock Penny rings her brother. A chartered accountant, he often works from home. But it's his wife, Michelle, who answers: Penny can hear the ping of a microwave oven in the background.
     "Can I speak to Richard, please?"
     "I'm sorry, he's with a client. Who's speaking, please?"
     "It's Penny."
     "Penny, hi! Why didn't you say? How are you?"
     "Not too good. I'm just getting over a migraine."
     "Oh, poor you. You get them really bad, don't you? It's about what Richard rang you up about, isn't it? I can tell you what that was all about. It's your mother, I'm afraid. She's taken a turn for the worse. He wondered if you'd like to come up here, stay with us a while...? Not if you're not well enough to travel."
     "No, I'll come. I'll get the train tomorrow. I should be better then."
     As soon as she puts the phone down, it rings.
     "Hi, Penny!" It's her boyfriend Malcolm. "Lorna said you were feeling better." Lorna had introduced them to each other six months before.
     "Better than I was last night. I've just found out Mum's taken a turn for the worse. I'll be going down to Southampton tomorrow."
     "I was just wondering if I could come over tonight. Not to go anywhere. Just to see you."
     "That's sweet of you, Malcolm. Sure."
     After she puts the phone down again, she goes back to her room and into bed. She dozes fitfully. In her waking moments, she imagines Malcolm's visit tonight. They'll talk, they'll play music, watch TV or a video. They'll make love.
     And tomorrow she'll travel south.

     At midmorning, I left my desk. I glanced across at Isobel, who looked up at me and nodded. When I first started working here, I knew what it was like to be left out of a clique: everyone knew everyone else better than anyone knew me. Conversely, I had an early reputation for being aloof. Now, of course, I was accepted, part of a team; cordiality reigned, at least during working hours. Twenty years older than me, Isobel was the first to befriend me. As we both smoked, we took a mid-morning coffee break together. When she was on leave or unable to leave her desk for some reason, I'd take a science fiction novel with me.
     The staff lounge on the sixth floor had been partitioned in two when the company passed its no-smoking policy. The left-hand half was officially the only place in the building where you could smoke (the fire-escape stairs were used unofficially). As there were a lot of smokers in the building (those who weren't, were often drinkers), a permanent smoke-haze hung over the room.
     Isobel and I sat down next to each other and she offered me a cigarette. "What a morning, eh?" she said.
     "I got involved in this big complaint case. Someone rang up wanting to know when we were doing this job. He'd been told this week. No-one had done bugger-all about it."
     She shrugged. "Bloody typical. He probably spoke to this phantom man or this phantom lady we have about."
     "Jenny seems to be getting it hard." This was someone who had joined our department three months before.
     "Poor girl. She told me, every time she gets in her car at five o'clock she just bursts into tears. Still, it could be worse. I spoke to someone in the London office yesterday and she told me there's somewhere in the country where people are being treated for depression. It was just the same at my last job. They just squeeze you dry and use you up. And of course, you can't go anywhere else. You're lucky you've got a job at all. That's what they'll say."
     In many ways, if I'd been born twenty years earlier I'd have wanted to be her. I found her attractive, as did others. She had children, and was kept young by her boyfriend (ten years her junior); she had a young outlook on life, generally. But I knew this was another pipe-dream. I hadn't told her I was a virgin (heterosexually); I hadn't told her about my homosexual experience (which was nearly aborted when he found I was wearing a pair of knickers under my trousers -- he wanted to have sex with a man, not a woman manque). Most of all, I hadn't told her about Marie. But if I were to confide in someone, it would be her.
     We went back down to the office. In amongst the memos to ring certain customers was a message to ring my brother. I went over to the clerical assistant's phone (we were no longer allowed to use the office switchboard phones for personal calls, though many still did) and dialled his work number. He answered on the second ring.
     "Hello, Richard," I said. "You rang. How's things?"
     "Oh, fine," he said. "Listen, Peter, the reason I'm ringing -- it's Mum. She's taken a turn for the worse. She might not last the week."
     "Oh shit."
     "She's had false alarms, but I don't think this is one. Do you want to come down? Michelle and I could put you up."
     "Yeah, sure. I'll speak to my boss about it. I'm sure I can get leave. In the circumstances." Said with an involuntary grimness.
     "Yes," said Richard. "I'm sure you can."
     So there it was. My mother was finally dying. And when the moment came, she'd have her two sons next to her. She had no daughters -- if you discounted myself.

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